This is confusing to say the least... I'm not talking about poker being shut down to the United States, that is about as clear as it gets...
What I am talking about is the fact that a majority of American's see with their own eyes day in and day out that the Freedom we hold so dearly, our constitution, our bill of rights, the declaration of independance, life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness... are all a thing of the past...
The image of the woman holding the scale comes to mind. The fragile balance that is justice. The current image that comes to mind is of a woman wearing a blindfold, holding a scale that has a pile of stones on one side, and feathers in the other, obviously the side with the stones has tipped the scale completely out of balance, and the side with the feathers, representing the average hard working, good natured citizen of a country we generally used to believe to be the best in the world, that side is way up in the air. The feathers are being blown away in the wind, and none of us knows what the hell to do.
Somebody else mentioned that we are not about to pick up muskets or hop on a horse yelling that the redcoats are coming. That made sense to me. We would be over powered in a second! And besides that, it's not something I'd even WANT to do. I haven't been in as much as a fist fight since I was in high school over 15 years ago... not because I am not a strong individual but because I have a desire for peace! I just want to be left alone to enjoy some aspect of life.
Playing online poker was one of the very few things I actually enjoy anymore. It is a very sad statement, I know, but I suffer from incredible depression. Medication helps a little, but "drugs" only do so much, we need to be able to find ways to accept what we have been given in this world. Poker helped fill that emptiness as a way to relax and enjoy the world. I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't engage in behavior that hurts my fellow man, I played poker as a daily escape from the harsh realities of the world. It was my time to relax, listen to some music, eat some chips and salsa, and let the craziness of the world just go by for at least a few hours a day. Now that is gone too.
How much more will they take away? And how much more can I and everyone else handle? I used to say things like "They better watch out, they don't want to set me off!" but the truth is, there's not much I could do that would matter much to any of them. They could stop any effort I put out in the snap of their fingers.
But there is one thing they can do nothing about, something that may happen and I don't even intend for it to happen. They can't force me to be productive. They can't force me to care. Right now I feel broken. I feel like the country is crumbling around me. And I don't feel there is any incentive anymore to waking up and trying hard anymore. They can't tax money I don't make. I doubt I am alone here, nor am I proud that I've reached this point, just the opposite, I'm quite ashamed at how weak I've become. But the bottom line, is I feel broken.
I don't know what happens if our country becomes one as oppresive as I suspect it might. I hope that my fight or flight response kicks in. Even writing this, I worry that I am putting myself in danger for expressing my thoughts. I honest to God am worried that my so called first ammendment right of free speech has become nothing more than an empty promise. That these unalienable rights set forth by our forefathers, are all subject to interpretation at this point. The constitution, the declaration of independance, the bill of rights... they are all pieces of paper with signitures of men long dead.
Forgive me for being dramatic, but what I see all around me is a country on the verge of becoming an oppressive dictatorship whose citizens are so brainwashed and naive that they believe they are immune to the types of injustice they have heard of in other parts of the world. It is the type of thing we've only heard of on the news and is no more relevant to our lives than is Hansel and Gretel or The little engine that could... well I am telling you right now, this little engine doesn't believe he can anymore... and that is sad...