So this has been the week of grinding for me. I've gone to the casino a ton, and while I've been losing more than I've been winning, I feel like I've been learning a lot. And right now that's what it's about.
Two nights ago I played a pretty bad session. I got it in bad a couple times and also folded the best hand in what would have been an enormous pot. Essentially 3 mis-steps made the difference between a -100 night and what could have been a +800 night. I'm not posting the hands because frankly, a couple of them were so bad that there's no question in my mind where they went wrong. Even though I know I played pretty badly in a couple spots, I definitely learned some things from it.
Last night I played a 5 hour session that was simultaneously infuriating and rewarding. I dropped 300 in the first hour, nearly all to river suck outs. The worst was when I iso'd with KJ, flopped top two, bet, got one caller, and slightly overbet shoved the blank turn (it was 95 into roughly 75 or so). I was more or less snap called by this guy. He had a flush draw and ended up binking it. My table was absolutely phenomenal though (that super loose passive guy, someone who it was just his second time playing, etc), so I sucked it up, went to the ATM and came back.
I spent the following 4 hours grinding hard. I won a few big pots, but I worked my ass off and managed to get myself back to even. I ended the night +90. It felt good, but I'm pretty aggravated at the sheer # of coolers and bad beats that have been hitting me.
I know that it's only a matter of time until I start pulling ahead, but with limited
bankroll, and summer fast-approaching, it's hard not to get discouraged with how my live experiences have been going. I like saying that I'm the first online player to transition to live who didn't immediately go on a heater. This is of course not true, and it's hard to compare live variance to online variance simply because of the time scales involved, but I think this is the worst I've run (monetarily and mentally) since going on a 30 BI downswing online after moving up.
I'm keeping the faith and planning to keep grinding hard til the end of the semester though. When I my confidence takes a hit, I look around the poker room and remind myself just how bad SO many of these people are playing.
And I know I can do this.