I started to win very very little , because of the strict VRM and the freerolls , or else I would still have losses , but not so great losses as when I started .
Then I didn't know a lot , I was playing for fun , losing everyday , depositing everyday , didn't know anything about freerolls , not even for promotions or bonuses or rakeback , LOL .
But when you lose evryday , either you will stop in the end or you will start paying attention a bit more at the tables , see with what you lost , what you did . Then maybe decide to watch one two tables , then decide to play more clever and sneaky . But still , only the decisions that was a great pain for me , such as very close to ITM , ot very close to get a sat ticket , but was a failure , were a shock to make me think more seriously .
Nowadays I will try to study sth more , then come back . I want to take it to a new level , study way far more , play very very few games one or two days , study is a must . Some have the charisma to play since children , some learn too fast at the tables , some study some and this is enough to start having profits , and some like me need a looooooot more work to succeed , LOL . gl to me nowadays
Although I still have nostalgia for the reckless games of the first days/months , when I didn't care for the money as fore the thrill , the fun , the bets waiting for luck . (Ofcourse I realised luck is not so '' lucky '' at the tables , this leads to an unavoidable need for change in betting/spending/depositing habbit ....)
Exactly how much I lost I don't know , but it wasn't a lot , I tried to calculate how much via the rakeback in the first 3-4 months when I started playing , it makes sth less than 300$ , very little money , but very strange , cause I remember depositing almost everyday 10$ for 3 months , it doesn't make so much sense nowadays to me , maybe 600-800$ is more probable loss , ofcourse there were some upswings in some sessions , very lucky NLH or rarely PLO cash games , so I had the money to spend for one more day or even two before I lost them , lol , but still , probably it's more , I don't really know ..... I am talking for PokerStars , there I began

Ofcourse still 600-800$ is not much , thanks God I also had hen , the fun days , the sense to control my spendings , although I hadn't learned or thought seriously of BRM , which happenned later due to boredom of the many times of losses and stupid
hands , lol

Also I was losing on one other site little money when I began , besides Stars , haven't calculated them ever since then .